It had been very long...

Dear God,
It had been really long, that I did not write to you...
I am sorry for this... Please forgive me for being so ignorant, so selfish...
Failure and disappointment sometimes lead me to despair. I hide behind my pride and self-pity, withdrawing from you and others. Give me the hope I need and help me never to be afraid to begin again.

:(

Tell God all that is in your heart, as one unloads one's heart, its pleasures and its pains, to a dear friend. Tell Him your troubles, that He may comfort you; tell Him your joys, that He may sober them; tell Him your longings, that He may purify them; tell Him your dislikes, that He may help you conquer them; talk to Him of your temptations, that He may shield you from them: show Him the wounds of your heart, that He may heal them; lay bare your indifference to good, your depraved tastes for evil, your instability. Tell Him how self-love makes you unjust to others, how vanity tempts you to be insincere, how pride disguises you to yourself and others.
~ Francois Fenelon ~

Tag X 2

LIST OUT THE TOP 5 PRESENTS YOU WISH FOR :
1. People that I love accept Christ, then we shall see each other for eternity
2. Real joy
3. Holiday trip!!! Anywhere will do, except a few places that I go until muak... =p
4. (don't really need other thing)
5. -

THE PERSON WHO TAGGED ME IS : Nigel =] & then later Ee May

YOUR 5 IMPRESSIONS OF HIM:
1. One of the famous dude in College
2. Very very talented
3. My favorite GelFM ;)
4. Melayu...
5. Likes to hide himself

YOUR 5 IMPRESSIONS OF HER:
1. Louis' sister, but how come doesn't look alike one...
2. Chubby, pinch-able
3. One of the favorite object to make fun of
4. Love food
5. Cheerful

MOST MEMORABLE THINGS HE HAS GIVE/DONE FOR YOU
A lot in fact, esp the Photo Album for my Birthday ;)

MOST MEMORABLE THINGS SHE HAS GIVE/DONE FOR YOU
Our HK Trip!

THE MOST MEMORABLE WORDS HE SAID TO YOU
(we yak alot, alot of meaningful topics, but can't remember a specific one... sowee)

THE MOST MEMORABLE WORDS SHE SAID TO YOU
(tak ingat also)

IF HE BECOMES YOUR LOVER, YOU WILL
Erm... Wow! very difficult to answer... Haha! Normally I don't know how to answer question with assumption =p

IF SHE BECOMES YOUR LOVER, YOU WILL
I am 'straight' k...

IF HE/SHE BECOMES YOUR ENEMY, THE REASON WILL BE
Never will, right? ;)

PASS THE QUIZ TO 5 PEOPLE THAT YOU WISH TO KNOW HOW THEY FEEL ABOUT YOU:
1. Yvonne
2. Carol
3. Yannie
4. Nigel *tag u back, kakakaka!
5. Ee May

1. WHO IS NO.3 HAVING RELATIONSHIP WITH?
Sehwy

2. WHO IS NO.5 HAVING RELATIONSHIP WITH?
According to the latest rumors (or joke), Dillon... LOL!

3. IF NO.3 AND NO.2 ARE TOGETHER, WILL IT BE A GOOD THING?
Lesbianism prohibited

4. WHAT ABOUT NO.4 AND NO.5?
Can try, they went to Phuket together for vacation before... Hahaha!

5. WHAT IS NO.3 STUDYING?
Form 5, SPM

6. WHEN IS THE LAST TIME YOU CHATTED WIT NO.5?
Just now, in church

7. DOES NO.4 WORK?
Yep, and he is lovin it

8. DO YOU HAVE ANY COUSIN IN HIS/HER OWN SCHOOL?
(What kind of question is this...)

9. WILL U BE WITH NO.1?
I stress again, lesbianism prohibited

10. HOW ABOUT NO.5?
Refer to Q2, rumors has it that she was taken, they even hold hand in the public...

11. DOES NO.2 HAVE ANY SIBLINGS?
Yep, 2

12. HOW DID U GET TO KNOW ABOUT NO.2 AND NO.4?
From PYP

13. WHERE DOES NO.1 LIVE AT?
Tmn Teratai, opps, again expose ur location to potential stalker

14. HOW DID U GET TO KNOW NO.2?
I answered at Q12 already ma... Anyway, I got to know her better during Group Andrew '07 =)

15. IS NO.5 THE SEXIEST PERSON IN THE WORLD?
Ask Dillon... LOL (Don't whack me ar...)

50 Questions

Got this tag from Amilia, sorry for being so late ;)

1. Last person you had a deep and meaningful conversation with?
Ernie

2. Where was the last place you went?
Church

3. If you could be with your first love, would you?
Never look back

5. Who was your first crush????
Maybe Donnie Yan

6. What was the last thing you highlighted?
Few sentences in the book "Purpose Driven Life"

7. Who is the last baby that you held?
Teng Zheng Yuan, my cutie niece

8. Do you know of any twins with rhyming names?
Yes

9. Are you ticklish?
Very

10. Have you ever worn a crown?
Sadly... no, maybe i wasnt meant for that

11. Last time you saw fireworks?
Malaysia International Fireworks Competition @ Sep'07

12. Who is the last person you hugged?
Teng Zheng Yi

13. Do you have a black dog?
Nah

14. Do you have a little black dress?
Yes, too little that I don't think I can fit in anymore...

15. What are you wearing right now?
Tee & shorts

16. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Sister

17. Do you like coffee?
Kinda

18. Are you missing someone?
Yes

19. Reason behind why you last cried?
I lost something

20. How much cash do you have on you?
P&C, not alot

25. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed?
This is the age of digital camera & phone camera...

26. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to change a regret?
To change a regret

27. What's on your mind right now?
Aloof

28. Do you have a deep dark secret?
Kinda

29. Do you wish you were with someone right now?
Yes

30. Who was the hottest teacher you ever had?
Don't have

31. What was the last thing you ever got grounded for?
I never got grounded

32. What was your childhood nickname?
*secret*

33. Do you have any strange phobias?
Yes. Wake up at mid night.

34. Have you ever played naked twister?
Ape tu? Pervert games?

36. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child?
Thief!

38. Is there anybody you just wish would fall off the planet?
Myself

39. Do you crack your knuckles?
No

40. What's one thing that can always be found in your refrigerator?
Eggs

41. What color are your bed sheets?
Purple, pink, blue, orange

42. How many kids do you plan on having?
Don’t know yet.

43. What did you do today?
Sleep, unpack, go to church

44. How would you like to die?
Die young, but without regret

45. Have you ever been in love?
Yes

46. When is the last time you went out of the state (province)?
Last week

49. Do you judge people?
Trying hard not to

50. Generally, in life, what makes you happy?
Spending time with love ones

Back from HK

Hong Kong : 17th ~ 21st Mar 2008

Chestita Baba Marta

"Martenitsa" on my wrist

Martenitsa (Bulgarian: мартеница /ˈmar.tɛ.ni.ʦa/, plural мартеници, martenitsi) is a small piece of adornment, made of white and red yarn and worn from March 1st until the 22nd March (or the first time an individual sees a stork or swallow). The name of the holiday is Baba Marta, a Bulgarian tradition related to welcoming the upcoming spring. The month of March, according to Bulgarian folklore, marks the beginning of springtime. Therefore, the first day of March is a traditional holiday associated with sending off winter and welcoming spring.

Martenitsi are always given as gifts. People never buy martentsi for themselves. They are given to loved ones, friends, and those people whom one feels close to. They are worn on clothing, or around the wrist or neck, until the wearer sees a stork or swallow returning from migration, or a blossoming tree, and then removes the Martenitsa and hangs it on a blossoming tree.

So, Peter asked Jaro to bring the 'Martenitsa' from Bulgaria for us, and then Stefan helped to put it on my wrist =)

Backstreet Boys Forever

Me & BiBi @ Sunway Lagoon surf park - Thanks to Darren, the just in time camera man ;)

Me after the show

LOL! I know some people will just find the title of this post unacceptable, but so what!! This is all about me & my beloved BSB!!!

Still very excited after the BSB Unbreakable Concert in Sunway ^.^

It was really a long story about how we rush there on time, but everything (the stupid jam, the hungry stomach, the spoiled shoes, the sweat, the muscles strain, the 'hamsup lou' nearby, the nearly die at the escalator scene & etc etc) is soooo worthwhile, to be able to see them in real life... (though things could have been better if we get the RM50 VIP Standing tickets... Grrrr...)

We changed our standing location 5 times...
1) We try to climb the monkey bar structure at the side, but kena halau by the crew, maybe they scare if everyone climb up, it will fall down...
2) The place when we met Darren my friend, nice spot for me, but BiBi visual was blocked by a lady "Xena" in front of her. This is the first time I feel glad about my above average height, haha!
3) Bad switch, stay there while only
4) Was standing behind 2 non-malaysian guys, don't know where they came from also, cos can't understand their lingo. Then the guy in front of me saw me so kesian, need to keep jumping & tip toe-ing to see, so he offered to switch place! Muahahaha... Of course, I took the offer! So happy ^.^ Then I asked his friend, if he can switch place with BiBi too. Then the guy that offered me his place, also told me, if I want, he can carry me on his shoulder... =.=* Haha! Of course, I said 'No, thank you!' I can be nuts, but not entirely dumb okay... But really thank them for being so gentlemen also la...
5) At last, we manage to squeeze thru the peoples, standing behind an eurasian couple, and on a pile of water (therefore the spoiled shoes...) and finally satisfied of the location and stay there til the end...

There was a girl standing nearby, shouting at the moment when Howie is singing his part, "Howie, I love you! What is your room number?" LOL! I laughed, and I realized that - I sooo wanna echo the same too!

And this is one of the very few times I can multi-tasking so well, later will post up some videos I took with my phone...
Don't expect them to have good quality, as my phone only have 2.0 megapixels. And I have to take video, jump, scream, clap hands, tip-toeing, feeling-so-in-love at the same time...
And if you heard some crazy fella screaming when Howie or AJ is singing, perhaps that's me... LOL! I just couldn't control the 15 yrs old in me... Haha! ^.^

After this didn't take anymore videos, cos too busy jumping around, screaming wild, getting too excited & out of control...

ARGH!! I just wanna say, after more than a decade, they still rock!!!

My Bloggie Flew Away ~~~

Thanks to Nigel for the special video ;)