Mercy Saw Me

The years had left scars, the scars had left pain
How could he recognise me? I wasn’t the same
I knew I should pay, and I knew the price
For justice and law demanded my life
But his tender heart heard my desperate cry
And he saw my past through merciful eyes

Beautiful - that’s how mercy saw me
Though I was broken and so lost
Mercy looked past all my faults
The justice of God saw what I had done
Mercy saw me through the Son
Not what I was, but what I could be
That’s how mercy saw me

Whatever you’ve done, you can’t go too far
That his eyes of mercy can’t see where you are
He loves you too much to leave you alone
You’re flesh of his flesh and bone of his bone
And his heart cries out for your heart today
See yourself through his eyes, and then you can say:
Sin had stolen my dignity and all my self-esteem
But I was made brand-new again when mercy looked at me

Beautiful - that’s how mercy saw me
Though I was broken and so lost
Mercy looked past all my faults
The justice of God saw what I had done
Mercy saw me through the Son
Not what I was, but what I could be
That’s how mercy saw me

Be Strong

"Be Strong" - I remember...
=)

Chicago The Musical

It was suppose to be a happy and exciting Friday...

Had a really busy day, hardly have time to even complete one meal...
Morning - as usual, woke up late since there is no agenda in the morning... Hehe :p
After the brunch, which I didn't manage to finish, no appetite... Sent mom to Maybank to pay some bills.
Then we went down to KL Town, to look for the Izzi Mobile Broadband office at Raja Chulan... Am so lost out there... But really thanks to FF for the direction, if it has to depend on my own... maybe until cow come home also won't be able to find it =.=!
But due to the delay, really wasted lots of time, and my mom was complaining all the way in the car... And I snap :(
Sigh! Me...

Then tabau chicken rice for our lunch, mom finished it in the car already cos she was really starving.
And I don't have time to finish my packet of rice because I need to get change and rush to Eastin Hotel to meet my new boss and the other colleagues.

So, I reached there at 4.15pm, and meet up with my manager Peter for the first time.
My manager look like a rock star with his blonde pony tail, almost as along as my hair... :p
But he is a nice guy, so far... Hehe!
Then the boss that hired me - Constantine, and the old friend Raiko who recommend me to the company came down to join us in the lobby.
Being the only yellow skin there... was very nervous all the way... Keke!

Time flies, the last time I've seen Raiko, it was already 3-4 years ago, when I was in ST for the Adv Diploma internship.
But he hasn't change much, still so bubbly and cheerful, meeting him again really remind me of those good old days working as an intern in ST.

And I really like my new boss, he is like those very warm and kind old gentlemen in the story that we often heard of ^.^

Then Constantine suggested to have our first get together session tonight - to watch the Chicago Musical in KL Convention Centre... Yoohooo!!
Not only a great opportunity to catch the musical, but the best seat we booked! What a luxury... I never thought I could afford things like this in my life... Thank you Constantine and of course my dear God =)

We yak there for about an hour, then I have to rush home to bathe and change to get ready for the show.

So I was home, bathed and only have time to eat half of my dinner, then have to start panicking because I can't seems to get any cab for me to go to KLCC.
It was already 7.25pm =.=* and I suppose to be there before 8pm.
Finally dad got home at 7.30pm, so asked him to send me to the bus stop at the main road to get a cab.
I was praying very hard all the way so that I will be able to reach there on time...
Tada! Thank God again, I managed to get to the Planery Hall at 7.58pm! Kakakaka ^.^

Hmmm... Nice show.... Hehehe! ^.^
I like the Amos guy, and of course, the good looking lawyer Billy...
Will get hold of the Chicago movie DVD one day to see what is the difference between the show and the musical.

The show end at 10.45pm and my car is not here yet, so I walked around for a while and waited at the Mandarin Oriental hotel lobby... This is the second time I've been there I think...
Got a liltle bit bored and took out my SE Z520i, took a few snap shot at the lobby, no fun at all with the 0.3 VGA camera... Haha! :p


So decided to rest my eyes a bit and wait...

He reached at 11.30pm I think, can't keep track of the time already cos really tired and hungry.
Then we went to Jalan Alor for makan, don't know why no appetite even though am actually very hungry...
After the supper, was looking for a place to chill out. Drive around KL a while, can't seems to find a suitable spot because most of those places are kinda noisy...

So we went to Kepong, found a cozy cafe there.
But something disturbing things happened.... Sigh!
What a night... Am very disappointed with myself.
God is being so good to me, but yet I failed Him badly. Human being and our sinful nature... =(

Time for me to ponder to find my way back to Him.

Last Day @ CSC

Today is my last day in the company.

It happened really fast, from the time I got the offer > to meet up with the company co-founder, to make the decision > to talk to my boss about this > to tender the resignation letter > until today - my last day at the company.

A workplace that means a lot of sentimental value to me...
Not to mentioned the great boss I have, always so understanding and helpful. Really feel bad whenever I think of him...
Had been working in CSC for 2.5 years, lots of things happened while I was working here, lots of memory...

The lift lobby to my floor:

The toilet cubicle that I often took a few minutes of sleep whenever I can't win over the sleeping bug...

The place where I sit:

This is also the place where I got the news that night...

The carpark at Glad Tidings next door:

Everytime I walk to the carpark, it surely reminds me of that night, how I haste to the carpark in the drizzling rain...

And this is also the place where I parked my car one day, during my lunch time, at one of the lowest point of my life. I called him to rant about my heartache and problems, always remember his gentleness over the phone, listening to me despite of his busy schedule...

And not to forget the way back home at night from the office.

Every night when I drive back home, the same scenes will keep replaying in my head.

As for now, I really do not know what lies ahead of me. I just have to trust in Him.
Is it a leap forward? Or backward? Diex Aye...

Facing The Giant

Today we had a video screenplay for PYP P1 program. Edited version of "Facing The Giant", cut down to 30 minutes show due to the time constraint.

The Synopsis:
In his six years of coaching, Grant Taylor has never had a winning season. Even the hope of a new season is squelched when the best player on his Shiloh Eagles decides to transfer schools. After losing their first three games of the season, the coach discovers a group of fathers are plotting to have him fired.
Combined with pressures at home, Coach Taylor has lost hope in his battle against fear and failure.
However, an unexpected challenge helps him find a purpose bigger than just victories. Daring to trust God to do the impossible, Coach Taylor and the Eagles discover how faith plays out on the field … and off.
With God, all things are possible...

I find the show very inspiring, at least to me =)
And it serve as a very timely reminder...

I always love to watch all these shows, victory after perseverance is always very moving and inspiring. Lots of scenes in the movie remind me of our Christian walk...

The scene where the coach was training the captain depict how "faith vs sight" would be.
This really answer the question I keep asking God lately.
I asked God, "When are you gonna stop sending hardship to me? Why can't You just tell when You gonna put an end to all these? Isn't what I have gone thru enough?"
I always thought my life is like an never ending marathon race, that I never know where is the finishing line, and the coach is being cruel to keep pushing me to go on...
I often felt so tired and I so wanted to give up, but... what if the ending is just few more steps away? It would be such a waste if I gave up at this point of time!
But today, God show me the reason.
Just like the captain, if he was not blind-folded, he would have stop when he reach the targeted milestone. But when he can't see, and can only depends on the voice of the coach, he achieved what is impossible when you depends on your sight.
Almost wet my eyes when I saw how Brock was doing the death crawl and manage to persevere until the ending zone...
Our physical strength may have a limit, but the strength from our heart - never.
If God would have tell me the total no of trials that I need to go through in order to pass the test, I would have just doing the standard procedures and put a limit for myself.
But if I do not know the ending point and therefore have no choice but keep going on, I might be able to go beyond my limit, as there will never be "enough" of doing for God.
God always want us to dream big for him, to do the impossible, only if we are willing to let Him do it through us.
Faith in Him, is all that we need...

There was also a scene that speak very close to my heart, and I guess to all the leaders too.
When the captain was so tired at the championship match, he wanted to quit the game as he thought that he has no more strength left to continue to be in the game.
But the coach reminds him that, "Everyone can lead when he have the strength, but what makes a good leader is what he do even when he have no more..."
Oh God, it's really like You are speaking to me... to ask me to hold on, to keep going, even when I felt so tired and there is no more strength left to fight, because You are with me...

When God is going to do something wonderful, He begins with a difficulty.... When He is going to do something miraculous, He begins with an impossibility.
~ Charles Inwood ~

Be strong =)