Sure? Unsure?

"When I was young I was sure of everything; in a few years, having been mistaken a thousand times, I was not half so sure of most things as I was before; at present, I am hardly sure of anything but what God has revealed to me."
~ John Wesley

So which one is better? Haha =p

... if only I may finish the race ...

This is a backdated post.

Tuesday -- When I was doing my quiet time, reading Acts...
( ya, purposely choose the book of Acts as my QT material this few weeks, so that at the same time I can do my revision for Bible Quiz... trying to "curi ayam" =p )
When I reached Chapter 20, I was very moved by Paul's farewell speech to the Ephesian church.
I wonder why I find reading Acts very boring last time in Gp Bethany... =.=
Those days we were using half of Acts as the book for BQ too. Must be not reading it right that time, or perhaps still have not come to the right understanding during then.

It was such a moving scene, when Paul telling them they would never see his face again after this... And how they wept and embraced each other as they parted.
( Reading all these just remind me of him => Miss you much... )
The testimony and example of the faithful ones often put me to shame... I'm just soooo utterly small & selfish as compared to these people, who love God more than anything else in the world.
God, help me - to learn to be selfless, learn not to go my own ways, learn to love You more; for only You are good.

Will end this entry with one verse from the same chapter that I read today, the words from Paul himself:
"However, I consider my life worth nothing to me, if only I may finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me — the task of testifying to the gospel of God's grace." ~ Acts 20:24
Amen!

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Not good

not good... the darn chest pain is coming back...
must have been too stressed up.
... feeling it even right now ....

is my times up soon? =p



p/s: pray for my mom & sis too, they too are not well at the moment...

Fake no more

Among the many great things about admitting your weakness and vulnerability is that it is so relaxing. I don't have to be a fake any more.

~ Dan Hayes ~

In the shadow you cast

“Take comfort that, though you stand tall and alone, others may take shelter in the shadow you cast...”

This quote always remind me of :

# the shadow of the cross, where we all find refuge & salvation in it
# the faithful ones that gone before us
   ( here is the link to a presentation of a similar message
     > http://www.donghaeng.net/english/duty/duty.swf )
# our high calling to live a selfless life

Screaming in the dark

Thank God for the 3 hours of nap, because I need it, badly... Was so freaking tired since last Saturday... So I went straight to my bed once I touch base! ( My bed already keep calling me when I was on my way sending gloria home ~~ )

Woke up at 9 something, no appetite for dinner, just had a bowl of my favorite barley tong sui, but didn't even manage to finish it...

Feeling not well... my gastric is coming back...
It's kinda funny when I think of it, because the doctor's diagnosis of my gastritis' rootcause is due to psychological factor, such as stress & emotional issues... Which is the only 2-3% from the statistics...
Wow, I'm a minority =p

Tried screaming out my heart desires, but no reply... in the dark...

I guess I still have not trust enough.

Diex aye...


Yep, this is the dark side of me...

Me too is an emo kid >.<

Pouring out of the soul...

Great grief prays with great earnestness. Prayer is not a collection of balanced phrases; it is the pouring out of the soul. What is love if it be not fiery? What are prayers if the heart be not ablaze? They are the battles of the soul. In them men wrestle with principalities and powers... The prayer that prevails is not the work of lips and fingertips. It is the cry of a broken heart and the travail of a stricken soul.

~ Samuel Chadwick ~

Do you love me more than these?

This is the question I start asking myself nowadays, whenever I'm struggling between my will or His will...

~ John 21:15-18 ~

Jesus asked Peter 3 times - "Do you love me more than these?"
And then taught him the lesson on love & selflessness.

"Feed my lambs."
"Take care of my sheep."
"Feed my sheep. I tell you the truth, when you were younger you dressed yourself and went where you wanted; but when you are old you will stretch out your hands, and someone else will dress you and lead you where you do not want to go."

Do we love God more than our dreams? Our career? Our decision in life? Our own conveniences? And etc?
Do we love God more than all these??

The very first thing which needs to be said about Christian ministers of all kinds is that they are "under" people as their servants rather than "over" them (as their leaders, let alone their lords). Jesus made this absolutely plain. he chief characteristic of Christian leaders, he insisted, is humility not authority, and gentleness not power.
~ John R. W. Stott ~

Can someone read my mind??

Blessed Birthday, Carol & Kenneth

Dear Carol,
I thank God for giving me this opportunity to get to know you more in Andrew this year. It always put a smile on my face when I see you being such a dedicated member, always supporting us in many ways quietly... =)
You will never regret if you continue to invest your coming years in the Lord, because those will be the things that last for eternity!

Dear Kenneth,
Nice knowing you too, a young lad that always smile and always so energetic to do almost everything. Always envy people like you that get to know & serve the Lord in young age. May you continue to grow in His presence.

For both of you - "A birthday is the first day of another 365-day journey with the Lord. Enjoy the trip!"

~ 1 Tim 4:12 ~

Romans 8:28

"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."
Sometimes we just need to let go & let God. Trust in Him for He is good.
God is in control! Like my dear brother always said... =)
Good night.

~ Psalm 46:10 ~

Exam Day! Rainy Day!

So tire... after spending 2 nights burning mid-night oil to study for my ITIL exam. (Erm, dun ask me to explain what is that, it's some IT related professional paper la)
And so I just back from the exam center at Mid-V, after the rain & the jam... =.=* I left at 5pm... Still dont know why already got so many cars on the road. Sigh! Driving in KL = stress!
But still have to be thankful for my car, cos I saw some people have to ride or walk in the rain. I guess everytime when I start to complaint about the traffic, I should instead be thankful for God's provision =)
And it's sooooo good to be home early! Today I get to have dinner with my mom, can't really remember when was the last time we can sit down together to have dinner.... CNY I suppose??? Usually I reach home after 7 or 8pm, by then, my parents already finish their dinner... So today, it was good, everything is simple but yet it was so good =)
Home sweet home... Thank God for my lovely parents, esp my mom, if one day I left without having a chance to tell her my last word, all those who read this, please help to tell my mom that - I love her so much ( sometimes I really wish I have the guts to tell her face to face... )

I guess that's all for today, I would like to end this with a quote by Mother Teresa: "If faith is lacking, it is because there is too much selfishness, too much concern for personal gain. For faith to be true, it has to be generous and loving. Love and faith go together, they complete each other. " Another reminder on the selflessness...

Happy Birthday John

May you have a meaningful birthday, a day to reflect what you have done with you past 16 years and be thankful for what you have for all these years. We must all learn to love what we have =)
“And in the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years.”
Last but not the least, I thank God for your friendship!

Holding On

The God on whom we rely knows what suffering is all about, not merely in the way that God knows everything, but by experience. In the darkest night of the soul Christians have something to hold onto that Job never knew.
We know Christ crucified. Christians have learned that when there seems to be no other evidence of God's love, they cannot escape the cross. "He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all – how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things?" (Rom. 8:32) …

When we suffer, there will sometimes be mystery. Will there also be faith? Yes, if our attention is focused more on the cross, and on the God of the cross, than on the suffering itself.
~ D.A. Carson ~

Where Is My Heart?