A Quarter...
birthdayThank you for so many blessings in my life, even though sometimes, I do whine & complaint about certain things… But Lord, truly thank you for everything.
If I would have one birthday wish, then please make me a blessing for others, especially my loved one...
Help me to grow in a deeper knowledge of Him and His ways.
Oh! I have turned a quarter century old today… =)
Another Christmas post
christmasSlept at 4.30am yesterday night, argh!!
And I roughly counted, about 120+ pressie wrapped... =.=!
the going out & coming back
Almost Done ~
christmas, dumb diaryShow u the progress of my crazy Christmas pressie wrapping spree...
Overall view, with my mini white Christmas tree
Closer view, with my Christmas tree light blinking
There are about 90 or more wrapped pressies to be given out in the pic, discount 2-3 is those that I have received so far...
Gila kan? That's why sometimes I dread Christmas season...
And that is not all, I have about 20 still haven't buy/wrapped...
I hope I can get all these done by tomorrow, which is few hrs from now. Then I may break free from the Christmas Eve 4am curse... @.@
P/s: mini games - "spot your name if you can", haha!
My Christmas Wishlist
christmas1. Square Pillow - for my car
Medium to small size will do, since my car is also small in size.
And... I prefer dark purple or grey, more matching to my car ma... (Am I asking too much? =p Kekeke!)
2. DVD-R or Mini/Pocket CD-RW
Needless to say more, I need the DVD for data backup, the Mini CD-RW for data transfer usage
3. Big Shopping Tote
The reason I need another big shopping tote is: the one I'm using (see the picture at the right hand side -->), my sister is now eyeing on it, haha!
So I told her, if I can get a another one, then she can have the current one ^.^
I need a big one with spacious compartment inside, cos this gonna be use for my Sunday bag as well, to put in all my Bible, Search the Scriptures, pencil case, water water, etc etc... ;)
4. Cross Necklace/Pendant
Sigh... ALL my cross necklace putus already!! Most of the time, it happened while playing with my niece or nephew. But 1 of them I lost it, on the way from CSA office to the carpark (that was the last one...) Most of them, at least 3-4 was pressie from BiBi, but now she dont wanna buy for me anymore cos she said I kept spoiling it... (Perhaps she forgot, she was one of the culprit too, she spoiled 1 of them when trying to clean it for me... Kekeke...)
5. Glade Car Scented Oil refill
The scented oil in my car habis already since a month ago, but keep forgetting to buy a new refill. If I not mistaken, the one I had been using is 'Jasmine' scent.... I think la...
6. Sport socks
I have not been having any 'decent' sport socks for many many years... Haha! What to do, the only chance I'll play sport is at PYP. And I normally wore sandles or kaki ayam when playing those games... The only sock I have now is a pink kiddy sock =.=* So I guess now is the time to get a decent & presentable one...
7. Glass vase
Glass vase for sunday flower offering =)
My black colour veil spoil almost spoiled already... So plan to get back another one for replacement.
(Don't ask me how I spoil it, maybe due to the horn on top of my head *EVIL* wakakaka....)
Haha! Mrs Lian senior gave this to me last sunday, so happy ^.^
Llanfairpwllgwyngyllgogerychwyrndrobwllllantysiliogogogoch
haha, triviaThis is the longest officially recognised place name in the world - a name of a village on the island of Anglesey in Wales. It contains 51 letters in the Welsh alphabet, where "ch" and "ll" count as single letters. The name is Welsh for "St Mary's church in the hollow of the white hazel near to the rapid whirlpool and the church of St Tysilio of the red cave".
Stumble upon this when I was reading wiki for leisure...
Wanna know how to pronouce it??? Click HERE.
It really gave me a few good laugh ;)
When God Ran
from the Creator, heart voice, holding on, rkymLuke 15:11-24
Jesus continued: "There was a man who had two sons. The younger one said to his father, 'Father, give me my share of the estate.' So he divided his property between them.
"Not long after that, the younger son got together all he had, set off for a distant country and there squandered his wealth in wild living. After he had spent everything, there was a severe famine in that whole country, and he began to be in need. So he went and hired himself out to a citizen of that country, who sent him to his fields to feed pigs. He longed to fill his stomach with the pods that the pigs were eating, but no one gave him anything.
"When he came to his senses, he said, 'How many of my father's hired men have food to spare, and here I am starving to death! I will set out and go back to my father and say to him: Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son; make me like one of your hired men.' So he got up and went to his father.
"But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him.
"The son said to him, 'Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son.'
"But the father said to his servants, 'Quick! Bring the best robe and put it on him. Put a ring on his finger and sandals on his feet. Bring the fattened calf and kill it. Let's have a feast and celebrate. For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.' So they began to celebrate.
I thank God for you, for you give me an opportunity to see God through your eyes, and teach me to understand more about how God loves us - through the song that you've once sang =)
When God Ran
(by Benny Hester)
Almighty God,
The Great I Am
Immoveable Rock,
Omnipotent powerful
Awesome Lord,
Victorious Warrior
Commanding King of Kings
Mighty Conquerer,
And the only time,
the only time I ever saw Him run
Was when
He ran to me,
Took me in His arms, held my head to His chest
And said "My son's come home again".
Looked in my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice
He said "Son, do you know I still love you?"
It caught me by surprise when God ran
The day I left Home,
I knew I'd broken His heart
I wondered if
Things could ever be the same,
Then one night,
I remembered His love for me
And down that dusty road, ahead I could see
It's the only time,
the only time I ever saw Him run
Was when He ran to me,
Took me in His arms, held my head to His chest
And said "My son's come home again".
Looked in my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice
He said "Son, do you know I still love you?"
It caught me by surprise, He brought me to my knees
When God ran
I saw Him run to me
And then I ran to Him
Instrumental Bridge
Holy God, Righteous One
Who turned my way
Now I know, He's been waiting
For this day
{Repeat Chorus}
And then He ran to me,
Took me in His arms, held my head to His chest
And said "My son's come home again".
Looked in my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice
I felt His love for me again
{Repeat Chorus}
He ran to me,
Took me in His arms, held my head to His chest
And said "My son's come home again".
Looked in my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice
He said Son, He said Son, My Son!
Do you know I still love you
Oohhh... He ran to me
When God ran
Mercy Saw Me
heart voiceHow could he recognise me? I wasn’t the same
I knew I should pay, and I knew the price
For justice and law demanded my life
But his tender heart heard my desperate cry
And he saw my past through merciful eyes
Beautiful - that’s how mercy saw me
Though I was broken and so lost
Mercy looked past all my faults
The justice of God saw what I had done
Mercy saw me through the Son
Not what I was, but what I could be
That’s how mercy saw me
Whatever you’ve done, you can’t go too far
That his eyes of mercy can’t see where you are
He loves you too much to leave you alone
You’re flesh of his flesh and bone of his bone
And his heart cries out for your heart today
See yourself through his eyes, and then you can say:
Sin had stolen my dignity and all my self-esteem
But I was made brand-new again when mercy looked at me
Beautiful - that’s how mercy saw me
Though I was broken and so lost
Mercy looked past all my faults
The justice of God saw what I had done
Mercy saw me through the Son
Not what I was, but what I could be
That’s how mercy saw me
Chicago The Musical
drawn to the world, gratitude, night-outHad a really busy day, hardly have time to even complete one meal...
Morning - as usual, woke up late since there is no agenda in the morning... Hehe :p
After the brunch, which I didn't manage to finish, no appetite... Sent mom to Maybank to pay some bills.
Then we went down to KL Town, to look for the Izzi Mobile Broadband office at Raja Chulan... Am so lost out there... But really thanks to FF for the direction, if it has to depend on my own... maybe until cow come home also won't be able to find it =.=!
But due to the delay, really wasted lots of time, and my mom was complaining all the way in the car... And I snap :(
Sigh! Me...
Then tabau chicken rice for our lunch, mom finished it in the car already cos she was really starving.
And I don't have time to finish my packet of rice because I need to get change and rush to Eastin Hotel to meet my new boss and the other colleagues.
So, I reached there at 4.15pm, and meet up with my manager Peter for the first time.
My manager look like a rock star with his blonde pony tail, almost as along as my hair... :p
But he is a nice guy, so far... Hehe!
Then the boss that hired me - Constantine, and the old friend Raiko who recommend me to the company came down to join us in the lobby.
Being the only yellow skin there... was very nervous all the way... Keke!
Time flies, the last time I've seen Raiko, it was already 3-4 years ago, when I was in ST for the Adv Diploma internship.
But he hasn't change much, still so bubbly and cheerful, meeting him again really remind me of those good old days working as an intern in ST.
And I really like my new boss, he is like those very warm and kind old gentlemen in the story that we often heard of ^.^
Then Constantine suggested to have our first get together session tonight - to watch the Chicago Musical in KL Convention Centre... Yoohooo!!
Not only a great opportunity to catch the musical, but the best seat we booked! What a luxury... I never thought I could afford things like this in my life... Thank you Constantine and of course my dear God =)
We yak there for about an hour, then I have to rush home to bathe and change to get ready for the show.
So I was home, bathed and only have time to eat half of my dinner, then have to start panicking because I can't seems to get any cab for me to go to KLCC.
It was already 7.25pm =.=* and I suppose to be there before 8pm.
Finally dad got home at 7.30pm, so asked him to send me to the bus stop at the main road to get a cab.
I was praying very hard all the way so that I will be able to reach there on time...
Tada! Thank God again, I managed to get to the Planery Hall at 7.58pm! Kakakaka ^.^
Hmmm... Nice show.... Hehehe! ^.^
I like the Amos guy, and of course, the good looking lawyer Billy...
Will get hold of the Chicago movie DVD one day to see what is the difference between the show and the musical.
The show end at 10.45pm and my car is not here yet, so I walked around for a while and waited at the Mandarin Oriental hotel lobby... This is the second time I've been there I think...
Got a liltle bit bored and took out my SE Z520i, took a few snap shot at the lobby, no fun at all with the 0.3 VGA camera... Haha! :p
So decided to rest my eyes a bit and wait...
He reached at 11.30pm I think, can't keep track of the time already cos really tired and hungry.
Then we went to Jalan Alor for makan, don't know why no appetite even though am actually very hungry...
After the supper, was looking for a place to chill out. Drive around KL a while, can't seems to find a suitable spot because most of those places are kinda noisy...
So we went to Kepong, found a cozy cafe there.
But something disturbing things happened.... Sigh!
What a night... Am very disappointed with myself.
God is being so good to me, but yet I failed Him badly. Human being and our sinful nature... =(
Time for me to ponder to find my way back to Him.
Last Day @ CSC
rkym, searchingIt happened really fast, from the time I got the offer > to meet up with the company co-founder, to make the decision > to talk to my boss about this > to tender the resignation letter > until today - my last day at the company.
A workplace that means a lot of sentimental value to me...
Not to mentioned the great boss I have, always so understanding and helpful. Really feel bad whenever I think of him...
Had been working in CSC for 2.5 years, lots of things happened while I was working here, lots of memory...
The lift lobby to my floor:
The toilet cubicle that I often took a few minutes of sleep whenever I can't win over the sleeping bug...
The carpark at Glad Tidings next door:
Everytime I walk to the carpark, it surely reminds me of that night, how I haste to the carpark in the drizzling rain...
And this is also the place where I parked my car one day, during my lunch time, at one of the lowest point of my life. I called him to rant about my heartache and problems, always remember his gentleness over the phone, listening to me despite of his busy schedule...
And not to forget the way back home at night from the office.
As for now, I really do not know what lies ahead of me. I just have to trust in Him.
Is it a leap forward? Or backward? Diex Aye...
Facing The Giant
DCQ, from the Creator, holding onThe Synopsis:
In his six years of coaching, Grant Taylor has never had a winning season. Even the hope of a new season is squelched when the best player on his Shiloh Eagles decides to transfer schools. After losing their first three games of the season, the coach discovers a group of fathers are plotting to have him fired.
Combined with pressures at home, Coach Taylor has lost hope in his battle against fear and failure.
However, an unexpected challenge helps him find a purpose bigger than just victories. Daring to trust God to do the impossible, Coach Taylor and the Eagles discover how faith plays out on the field … and off.
With God, all things are possible...
I find the show very inspiring, at least to me =)
And it serve as a very timely reminder...
I always love to watch all these shows, victory after perseverance is always very moving and inspiring. Lots of scenes in the movie remind me of our Christian walk...
The scene where the coach was training the captain depict how "faith vs sight" would be.
This really answer the question I keep asking God lately.
I asked God, "When are you gonna stop sending hardship to me? Why can't You just tell when You gonna put an end to all these? Isn't what I have gone thru enough?"
I always thought my life is like an never ending marathon race, that I never know where is the finishing line, and the coach is being cruel to keep pushing me to go on...
I often felt so tired and I so wanted to give up, but... what if the ending is just few more steps away? It would be such a waste if I gave up at this point of time!
But today, God show me the reason.
Just like the captain, if he was not blind-folded, he would have stop when he reach the targeted milestone. But when he can't see, and can only depends on the voice of the coach, he achieved what is impossible when you depends on your sight.
Almost wet my eyes when I saw how Brock was doing the death crawl and manage to persevere until the ending zone...
Our physical strength may have a limit, but the strength from our heart - never.
If God would have tell me the total no of trials that I need to go through in order to pass the test, I would have just doing the standard procedures and put a limit for myself.
But if I do not know the ending point and therefore have no choice but keep going on, I might be able to go beyond my limit, as there will never be "enough" of doing for God.
God always want us to dream big for him, to do the impossible, only if we are willing to let Him do it through us.
Faith in Him, is all that we need...
There was also a scene that speak very close to my heart, and I guess to all the leaders too.
When the captain was so tired at the championship match, he wanted to quit the game as he thought that he has no more strength left to continue to be in the game.
But the coach reminds him that, "Everyone can lead when he have the strength, but what makes a good leader is what he do even when he have no more..."
Oh God, it's really like You are speaking to me... to ask me to hold on, to keep going, even when I felt so tired and there is no more strength left to fight, because You are with me...
When God is going to do something wonderful, He begins with a difficulty.... When He is going to do something miraculous, He begins with an impossibility.
~ Charles Inwood ~
Be strong =)
so in .... with you
day-dreamingI'm too weak to be strong
When you see your reflection
You say it isn't you
Then you turn the other way
And I'm watching you suffer
Yourself and your pain
To trust Him, no matter what
camp, DCQ, family, from the Creator, holding onBut attending Family Camp will still be in my yearly must-do plan.
Why? Because I acknowledge that it is a necessity for the church to gather together as a family to do His will, simple as that.
It is not what I want, but what I need.
And I have learn to appreciate small little things in life, this really help to make my days in camp easier. Like spending some good times (eventhough limited) with BiBi, the Sunday School kids, Adam & Lip Seng's family, Yow Looi, Yen Teng, etc etc.
Lemuel is so sweet and cute, Karsten is blur but yet adorable, not to forget Amanda & Caitlin too =) Whenever I look at these 2 little girls, I can't help but think of Arielle. Miss her so much.
Sometimes I wound wonder, am I having some curse of not being able to keep my most love one close by my side...
And sis & the nieces are here for the holidays, their presence certainly help me to shoo away the gloominess, thank God for the right timing =)
Yesterday I when I was doing my QT, I came across this few verses in Isaiah:
“For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways,” declares the LORD.
“As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.
As the rain and the snow come down from heaven,
and do not return to it without watering the earth
and making it bud and flourish,
so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater,
so is my word that goes out from my mouth:
It will not return to me empty,
but will accomplish what I desire
and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.
(Isaiah 55:8-11)
I only hope I could trust in Him more, knowing that He - the Creator of heaven & earth, the One who weave me in my mother's womb - will never be wrong, and will only give me what is right.
“O Lord! Help me to trust in You and make You the center of my life!”
It is a glorious thing to know that your Father God makes no mistakes in directing or permitting that which crosses the path of your life. It is the glory of God to conceal a matter. It is our glory to trust Him, no matter what.
~ Joni Eareckson Tada ~
My Desktop
tagThis is desktop of my work laptop, and I have already "personalize" it... Hehe!
My wallpaper is... kinda guyish... Haha! A graphic wallpaper from LOTR the movie.
Er... My desktop is kinda messy at the moment...
Usually I will have:
> the 5 normal desktop shortcuts icon at the 1st vertical row from the left
> those 2 weird icon at the 2nd row is the tools that I used to connect to my work-related database
> 3rd row is the task that I need to get it done, put there so that I won't forget
> my Recycle Bin is always at the lower right corner
The cluster of 5 files at the lower left corner are:
> those event posters I got from Nigel that I have yet to upload to PYP Website
> the Excursion to PD parents' consent form
> not to forget the PFC Camp Site Layout nicely drawn by Vincent
These are the files that I need to do something about it or to go through before I place them in the document folder.
And I am very particular with my Quick Lauch toolbar, those applications that I often used will be place there & launch from there. Therefore it was arranged in a specific & particular order. And I have set my Toolbar to be able to display 2 rows...
So what else you need to know?
As you can see, the applications that currently running are
> Lotus Notes - the company email tool (normally people use OutLook)
> Gmail - the personal email tool ^.^
> couples of folders & Excel files that I'm working on for my work
> and you also can see that I'm chatting with Yi En & David on msn... =p
> my blog cos I'm updating it now...
That's all!
I got this tag from Amilia, and I gonna pass it on to Yvonne, Iviane & Alvin.
My FaceBook!
dumb diaryFinally decided to join since recommended by David, Anne & Lydia...
Now kinda addicted to it, why? Show you some funny notification / status updates that I have recieved:
YeeLing FightPoked someone. 5:24pm
You became Soo Jen Ruw's pimp.
You toilet-paper'd Anne Foo Wai Ling.(September 25 9:18pm)
You had a panda seduce Lydia Chin.(September 25 9:17pm)
You engaged David Lian in a light-sabre duel.(September 25 9:15pm)
Lydia Chin is fighting with YeeLing Lee because you don't love me anymore... :o(
YeeLing's response: Who said I dont! Whack u for not believing in me!
This fight ends in about 8 hours, and You are currently manhandling Lydia with a team worth 5.0 street credit against Lydia's 0.0
YeeLing was attacked by Dixon's Vampire Warrior! 8:03pm
YeeLing's Vampire Bride was attacked by Dixon's Vampire Warrior and Dixon seriously put some hurt on YeeLing. Dixon won an additional 2 Vampire points. Seriously.
YeeLing turned someone into a Vampire! 8:20pm
YeeLing bit Nigel and turned them into a Vampire!
Lydia Chin Dares You To Lick a Toilet Seat
Nigel Sia Dares You To Shave Off Your Eyebrows
YeeLing has Double Dared friends! 6:36pm
Double Dared Lydia Chin To Moon Somebody, Anybody
YeeLing has Double Dared friends! 12:22am
Double Dared Jason Boey Yue-Xuan To Take 3 Shots of Maple Syrup and Hop Around Like a Bunny
YeeLing has Double Dared friends! 11:07pm
Double Dared Yi Sung Yong To Wear Underwear On Your Head and Pretend to be a Ninja
YeeLing has Double Dared friends! 11:06pm
Double Dared Nigel Sia To Tell your Parents You're Pregnant
YeeLing updated what she did today. 6:34pm
Today, I ... ate Indian food with BiBi ^.^
YeeLing has held hands with Lydia Chin. 2:32am
YeeLing has bitten Yvonne Yong. 2:32am
Lydia Chin has cast a spell on YeeLing.
YeeLing has bitten Dixon Leong using SuperPoke! 9:48pm
YeeLing has cast a spell on Jeffrey Chen using SuperPoke! 9:26pm
YeeLing has drunk dialed Anne Foo Wai Ling using SuperPoke! 8:00pm
YeeLing has used the force on Nigel Sia using SuperPoke! 7:59pm
YeeLing has thrown a fish at Yvonne Yong using SuperPoke! 7:58pm
Hehehe... Seems fun eh? ;)
Faith vs Fate
in moment like this, in the dark, searchingBut this post, too is a negative one... Ha! Sorry, I'm just being me...
Watched a show today, the ending was sad.
So got a liltle bit depressed at the mo...
It just remind me of how things in life won't happen according to the way you want it to be - no matter how hard you tried; but yet you've got no choice but to go through it.
人生 - 无奈; 做女人 - 更无奈...
When faith vs fate, what we gotta remember is - "for men, it is faith; for God, it is fate"
And we all have a decision to make, a path to choose.
I wonder what is await for me at my "destiny"?
Dear God, help us, and help me!
Help us not only learn to go through life, but to grow through life.
And I am tired, restore me...
Help me to see it through Your eyes...
Gone... All of them...
in the dark, not good, rkym2-in-1 Tag...
tagSo lets see what I can do... Hmmm... I'll just combine both tags la, kekeke...
"Things come in Five" + "Seven" = "FIVE" >.<
Five things to be done before my death
1. to see my family get to know God
2. make my love ones proud of me
3. travel with those special someone (can have broad defination for 'special') =p
4. out of debt
5. smiling...
Five things i will not do even if it kills me
1. losing "myself"
2. losing freedom
3. not sleeping
4. cuddle a cat
5. play with insect
Five things i do when i'm away from the public
1. be myself
2. sleep all i want
3. day dreaming
4. talk/rant to God
5. having imaginary friend
Five favourite sentences/quotes
1. celaka
2. ar?
3. i'm so stupid...
4. babi
5. huh?
Five fav songs from all time
1. home
2. all over again
3. 屋顶
4. 情非得已
5. it is well with my soul
Five things you wish you didn't do if you did
1. hurting ppl that love me
2. hurting ppl that i love
3. playing with fire
4. & get myself burn
5. saying/doing stupid things
Fix Me
heart voice, in the darkWhen I get what I want, but not what I need
When I feel so tired, but I can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
When the tears come streaming down I face
When I lose something I can't replace
When I love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
Your lights will guide me home
And ignite my soul
And You are trying to fix me
High up above or down below
When You love me too much to let me go
I will never know even if I try
Am I really worth?
Your lights will guide me home
And ignite my soul
And You are trying to fix me
========================================
Suddenly wanna try to edit the lyrics of the song I was listening in my random playlist...
Haha, I know my work kinda suckish, trying to diplay my zero creativity at 12am =p
Ok la, it's bed time =) Good night!
Dear God, hold me close tonight...
One word/sentence
tagAnd I found out that we have a few things in common.
Where is your cell phone? In the drawer
Relationship? Hmm... it's complicated... haha
Your hair? A lil messy
Work? -ing
Your sister? Now at Johor with my cutie nieces
Your favorite thing? Sleeping
Your dream last night? I seldom dream
Your favorite drink? U wont wanna know... hehe
Your dream car? Any nice Honda will do
The room you’re in? "Freezer office"
Your shoes? Viss
Your fears? Being lost
What do you want to be in 10 years? Out of debts and happier
Who did you hang out with this weekend? PYP
What are you good at? Spark up scandals
What are you not good at? Self-control
Muffin? Yes, whynot
One of your wish list items? Wisdom
Where you grew up? Kay-Elle
Last thing you did? Makan lunch
What are you wearing? Turtle-neck top & skirt
What aren’t you wearing? My access card, left in in the car
Your pet? Nah...
Your computer? Dell Latitude D620
Your life? Lost in tribulations
Your mood? Moody
Missing? Something
What are you thinking about right now? Is there a way out of this?
Your car? At the parking lot
Your kitchen? Good - under the maintenance of my dear mummy
Your summer? It's Malaysia la...
Your favorite color? Purple!
Last time you laughed? Yesterday night during camp meeting
Last time you cried? I dont want to remember
School? Ya, I've been to school... duh...
Love? Something I tried so hard to understand
Next victim > Carol, Ee May & Jeff
Kekekeke! Have fun...
God answers prayer...
in the dark, searching1) No, not yet;
2) No, I love you too much;
3) Yes, I thought you'd never ask;
4) Yes, and here's more.
I know there is absolutely nothing I can do right now, other than crying out to you.
God, please help me...
Help me to keep trusting in You, that You love me and will never give up on me.